jimmy fallon
2001-07-22 at 10:45 a.m.

written last night but computer messed up and couldn't log back on:

okay. jimmy fallon singing christmas songs is great.

it's amazing the thoughts thatcome to you while you're waiting for your stomach to get empty so that you can take your medicine before you go to bed.

today my friend, ryan, came over and it was grrreat to see him. i hadn't seen him since i left for london and i really missed the kid. he might be looking for a place to stay and we are sort of looking for someone to move in and it would be FAN-tastic if he moved in here. i just like having him around. he might move in with his girlfriend because then it'd be free rent...but i think he might be worried about his sanity. i know i almost killed ryan(my ex) while we were sort of living together. blood was almost shed.

anyway. it was really good to see him because he's a really good person and i never feel like i have to impress him with anything.

i don't know what my deal is with thinking i have to impress people lately. i think it's because i'm realizing that i DON'T have to impress anyone and how much happier I am when i'm not trying to....meaning, i think, that i used to always try to impress people.

oh dear. i'm not making any sense right now. what's written might be coherent but what's in my head isn't. this whole mono thing isn't fun at all. my throat's on fire and i'm so sleepy.

need to go to bed but must take medicine.

can't take medicine for 1 more hour.

ate ice cream an hour ago and can't take medicing until stomach is empty.

high in fat foods are bad for medicine.

ice cream is a high in fat food

i like ice cream

therefor-i like high in fat foods.

i told you i'm amazing when i'm all doped up on medicine and lack of sleep.

billy crudup's very nice looking..lucky mary louise parker

reading over this i realize how crazy i sound.