I am going to break Mr. Honey's fingers
2004-11-11 at 3:15 p.m.

Don’t you just love it when you hear co-workers telling other co-workers true stories about their lives that are really not flattering? I especially love it when it's a superior of mine and they are telling it to get a laugh but in reality it just makes them look bad.

So I got some really bad news last night from one of my favorite persons in the whole world. She seemed to be taking the situation as best as one can expect. In truth, she seemed to be handling it way better then that. But I hate it. I absolutely hate that she has to be in this situation with no control over the outcome because of someone else's stubbornness. It's so unfair.

And she's giving him the space that he wants and that's fine and all. But ARGH! What I wouldn't give to be there and give him a good kick in the rear. But maybe this is how serious, marriage relationships are supposed to work. Even though you want to rip somebody's head off and yell at it, you're supposed to recognize their wants and give them the space that they want.

But what if they shouldn't have that space? It’s easier for them, yes, to take a step back and think. However taking a step back is also a way of avoiding the situation. Especially since he is the type to make major life decisions without talking it over with anyone.
So I don't think taking a step back is the best solution here. It's the easy way out of a heartbreaking situation. And staying in the heat is really hard and will probably hurt. But some things are worth the work.

People make a decision to get married and they go into it thinking that the euphoric feeling they have at the beginning will last forever. But it's not going to be a constant effect. You have to work hard. You have to make sacrifices for the greater good. But since it's for the love of your life, shouldn't it be worth it?

You made a commitment to this person. You promised to love and honor. Were those just words to you? Do you not understand how grownups work? You can't be selfish and pretend like you can end that chapter of your life in the blink of an eye and "move on".
Fuck moving on. Grow up and realize that you've got it great. You are in love and you are loved. People go throughout life without those gifts and you're throwing them away because you don't like the idea of having to think of somebody else when making major life decisions.

And then you don't want to talk about it? You just want to shut yourself up in a house and avoid talking about it with anyone?
That is not healthy.

I am so pissed. And so be it if you make me question my Luke's heart and faithfulness I will hurt you more then you can ever imagine. If I had money I would probably be breaking your fingers for the pain that you are causing Her. Oh I am so mad that you don't even respect her enough to talk about this with her. Yes it would be hard, but what you're doing now is just making her heart harder. That is the cruelest thing you could possibly do to this world.

You don't deserve her. You used to, before you became an ass.

Oh now I’m all churned up and the rest of work is not going to be fun for co-workers when I snap at them. And poor Luke. When he came home last night I almost snapped on him for getting in late. And then my sleepy self made him promise to go to marriage counseling should any bumps arise in our relationship. Of course he promised that he would because he would hate for us to not be happy.

Oh Mr. Honey I am SO peeved at you!